I will admit that I allowed my depression to get the better of me this week. It is hard not to at this time of year. Reflecting on the past year has reminded me that 2017 has been a very difficult year. However, I know that I am not alone. So many others have it far worse than I do.
Saint Peter understood this tendency to focus on the wrong thing. When the disciples were in the boat on the Sea of Galilee and a storm came up, they found themselves worried that they might die. Jesus was not with them. Then they saw him walking on the water toward their boat! And Saint Peter, being the one always willing to put his foot in his mouth or show off his lack of humility, asked to walk on the water toward Jesus.
His first few steps were fine. He was doing it! He was walking on water! However, he allowed his human nature to get the best of him. He took his eyes off of Jesus and looked down at the water and immediately started to sink. Jesus grabbed his hand, pulled him up and helped him back into the boat.
For me, especially this week, I took my eyes off of Jesus and started looking at the world around me. I started looking at all the things I wanted to do, the things I wanted to get, the things that I thought should be done differently. And when I did, I got depressed. I took my eyes off what mattered most.
As we draw closer to the Christmas season, it becomes more and more of a challenge for those of us with chronic depression. However, we as Christians also have the great advantage that we can turn to Jesus and ask for his help. We can focus on him and find new purpose. He can guide us to those things that will help us battle our depression. Jesus may not take away our cross of depression, but focusing on him can help make it a little easier to carry.
So look to Jesus today and find the strength you need to keep walking on water!